Hard Enough Time Just Trying

Mark 14:51-52 And a young man followed him, with nothing but a linen cloth about his body. And they seized him, but he left the linen cloth and ran away naked.

These verses have always troubled me. Now you may be reading this wondering "What is this kid about to start talking about?" Well let me explain. No this isn't some high exposition of text, cause frankly I'm pretty sure I'm breaking every rule of Hermeneutics. Let me start out...

I'm 19 years old and I've come to the realization that I don't know everything. Actually I found that out about 6 months ago but I pretended just to make myself feel better. But at this young age I've figured out that I'm never going to be a "Master of Divinity." My sinful nature wont allow me. Even though I strive and fight and kick and spit...I....I, just wont understand everything about God.

I can't wrap my mind around how God elects some people, and then at the same time is not willing any should perish but all to come to repentance. Even though most say that the greek word of "all" can be taken in two ways...individually meaning each, every, any, all, the whole, everyone, all things, everything...or collectively meaning some of all types. For me, I have my stance but I'm not going to divide a church over it.

How about this one. Is the NT church a model of how we are suppose to act in the body of Christ or is it the model of how we are suppose to meet in homes like the early church. Even though culture, and history influence the reading of the Bible. I don't take a stance on this one because, well...technically "I've had church" in a van in Calcutta India, on the beaches of Galveston, and on the front porch of my friends house.

I read this one today. Is man born a sinner? Or is he a sinner by the choices he makes after he is born?

Worship on Saturday or Sunday? Did the gifts of the Spirit die out? Is there such thing as a laughing revival? Is todays missions working? Do we send western missionaries or natives?

Now now, I'm not looking for answers. I say that because I'm not looking for a thesis on the doctrine of Orginal Sin or how speaking in tongues proves that you've been baptized in the Holy Ghost. All I'm saying is that...everytime I get into a decussion about these things I feel like the young man in the Mark passage. I'm following maybe for the right reason, or wrong just depends. But then when something grabs me, I flee. Not literally naked but you get the point. I get scared. It's not that I don't have an opinion or stance, it's that well I just have a hard enough time just trying to submit to my authorities with a pure heart. Or witness to someone who is lost and going to hell. I find it hard to pray sometimes. Now does this mean I'm just going to give up on finding answers, start watering down the Gospel, my view of Christ in light of His Word and His work to redeem men for the wrath to come? No! But now I'm going to find the answers with humility. Not looking for them with pride, just so I can prove my point. I'm going to make sure I have the linen cloth still over me. I know in God's time, He'll show me. I have faith for that.

.....Was I just naming and claiming that?